Thoughts tell me I know; for, I realise it every moment of the day and every moment of time that I am, for, I see and realise. But then thoughts… I do not see; only the following action and reflection is seen and that too only after the thoughts have gone through me and not while going through me that I see it.
Thoughts tell me that I am thinking pure or impure. Desires of doing good deeds, japa, meditation and sva-adhyaya or reading get mixed with impure thoughts. Each level of intermingling thought tells me that I am guilty for neither I am pure nor impure. The middle path has taken me on the path of ruin.
In the shadows of light I had seen a ray of truth… maybe
if I remove the guilt, will I be the pure one or the impure one?
Can I increase my pure thoughts? Will they kill the impure ones?
I know I am on the path, but is it the path of knowing and unknowing?
Years have passed in the battle, hair has become white, wrinkles on the face now, powerless are shoulders… I know the ray of light was a path of delusion. The illusion of duality broke me apart even more. Pure or impure thoughts… both gained strength for they relished the senses. Subtle impressions are left on the mind and so many potholes of an impression are there now that even the moon surface looks clean.
The Satswaroopa (true form) is the truth that gets deluded with the play of Rajaswaroopa (play of goodness) and Tamoswaroopa (impure form) controlled and directed by the Manaswaroopa (inner consciousness). Once the Satswaroopa is realized through a process of annihilation of the Rajaswaroopa and Tamoswaroopa, the Manaswaroopa transforms into the pristine pure self. This transformation is called the Divya Sampat (Divine wealth) which expands the inner consciousness allowing one to transcend the path of religious dogmas and realizing the true path of Divine knowledge.